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Release me Release my body I know it's wrong So why do I keep coming back I say release me 'Cause I'm not able to Convince myself That I'm better off without you Let me go. Why do I like you so much? Where is the end, where did it all begin? When did I notice that I really like you? When did I know that you are The One for me? Why did I realize it so late? Why didn't I know back then that you could be my future? You should never look back. You should never look down. You should not regret, you should not think "what-if". You should be strong, keep on going and challenge your future. Can You see that we belong together? Can You see that ... Go with your guts, go with your feelings. The feelings are deep; I know I hurt you. I know it all. I would love to take it back if I could. I can't say that now everything will be different, but I think I would try to be better, improved me. I challenge you to love me. I can't. I tried. I ... I ... Do you see me?...

Have you ever heard a person instructing you even though you know what you are doing? Have you ever had an advice how to do something right despite of one's knowledge? These so-called " life coaches" might be found from your inner circle. It might be your mom, dad or your best friend. Let’s take an example. You are an athlete, you train, you work hard, you have a goal. You do your best, but you never finish – you don't cross the finish line. A Failure . Once again, one more. You are ALREADY worked up about everything and then someone from the public comes up and says to you: “Good game, but why didn’t you run faster?” Umm.. Eee.. Gee, dude . I really don’t know, maybe because I didn’t want to win? Or maybe because my back is killing me and I can barely walk at the moment? Maybe because it hurts to run but I am running because of loads of pills and will power. I try to outsmart my pain . But no, I just walk away from the person and say nothing. Not worth to ...

Fear starts at the point when control stops. Control. We love to have control in our lives. We want to control some aspect in it. It might be food, relationships, and looks; etc. Everyone wants to have control over something - school and doing your homework daily is one way of having control over something. I have huge fear – fear of driving. I lost control of my car on one sunny, but slippery winter day. I was really terrified because the car was going up to 80 km/h. Car started going on the left, over the disjunctive strip. At the last moment I really tried pulling the steering wheel to the right, and then it started going on the right and spun over the roof 3 times and stopped. The most terryfing moment in my life – I was mainly concerned about the car because I survived. Afterwards I’ve realized how lucky I was to get out of this accident alive. Happy to be alive, although I feel bit sad about the car, but a car is just a piece of metal and plastic. Nothing more, nothing less. Pers...